It's time for me to Confess

I am actually an Alien named Mork from the planet XCFBJTJMBF!

This is what's going on right now..

Many of you know (because I'm not shy) that I found out approximately 4 - 5 years ago that I have Adult ADD and that I was, more than likely (love the way Psychs say that the other Psych fucked up), mis-diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder (MDD) and have been treated on the incorrect medication since 1995. Yes folks, for a little over 10 years!

But, the mis-diagnosis and even the new diagnosis has never been the "big" problem. It was the treatment that was and has been the problem.

Before I go into the exciting facts about SNRIs and our brains, let me tell you what has happened to "Me" while de-toxing from the #1 Prescribed Medication.

Without going into too many Medical details right now (which is actually MY favorite part) - the half-life (how long it takes for the drug to exit my system) for this drug is around 12 hours.

Now, I have had no side effects in a 24 hour cycle;
Hypothetical Day:
800 am Take pill
800 pm Pill has exited the building
800 am Wake Up and Repeat

So, it's when there is no repeat (either forget, only have 30 pills in a 31 day month, switched insurances and couldn't pay $150 for 30 day supply) You get my drift, this is when the fun begins.

First, the "brain zaps"
Second, the "shakes"
Third, the "crying" for no reason at all
Last, (mind you this was only recently added to the 1% of side effects) the seizures.

Yes folks, in the middle of a deep sleep, you sit up, take a deep breath and chomp down on whatever is in your way (tongue, cheek, lip)

And this is missing it for a little over 24 hours!

There are pages upon pages of forums, blogs, etc on this drug and it's horrible de-toxing. No attorney will take the big, bad Pharma Company on so all of us poor slops get to suffer (and the people around us too)

So, I'll be writing about this. Insha Allah and depending on how I feel at that second.

I will also share the medical part with you-just so you understand- in case you are living with someone or going through it yourself.

Oh, so I'm calling this medication, hmmmm, for now - Big Bad E

Good Nite